If you really knew me you would know that I struggle with insecurity. You would know that when I was a little girl I thought that once you got married that insecurity went away. You would know I was wrong about that.
If you really knew me you would know that I would rather have candy or chocolate over flowers any day.
You would know I drink coffee morning, noon, and night. You would know that I hate scary movies and they terrify me to the point I can't sleep at night. You would know that I could lay in a bathtub for hours and that is my happy place.
If you really knew me you would know that my family is my world. You would know that I am a dreamer, and those dreams usually include the countless dreams I have for Preston. You would know that there is absolutely nothing I wouldn't do for my little boy.
If you really knew me you would know that I don't hide much. I am an open book and if someone asked me something, I will 9 times out of 10 give them the answer regardless how personal it is. You would know that my desire to help others is strong, and if a simple conversation can do so then I am game.
If you really knew me you would know I write everything down. You would know that I am the definition of a list maker, but almost always lose my lists.
If you really knew me you would know that I love a clean house. You would know it rarely is in a state of perfection and I am ok with that also. You would know that if it came down to folding a basket of laundry or being on the floor stacking blocks over and over just so Preston could knock them down, blocks will always win.
You would know I have a deep fear for the world we live in. The world is a scary place at times, but you would know I have peace in my soul that the Lord will protect us and I always trust His will. You would know that I pray every night over Preston's crib asking God to allow us all to have healthy and happy lives. I ask him to watch over our family and to keep us safe. You would know that I always end a prayer in "The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, Blessed be the name of the Lord."
If you really knew me you would know I love to take long walks, but don't do it as often as I should. You would know I'm attracted to art and music, but it takes a lot for me to tap into a creative mind. You would know I love to cook, and I enjoy planning out meals for the week.
If you really knew me you would know that I am obsessed with changing sheets on beds. You would know I change them at least twice a week because there is nothing better than sleeping on crisp, clean sheets.
If you knew me- really knew me- you would know that I try to live each and every day as my last. I try to provide the happiest home for Preston possible and you would know that I could not imagine life without my two favorite men.
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